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Head Spinnnnn

While my head is spinning one direction, my world is spinning another. Finally things have hit a point where clear action is required. I believe that we all hit these pivotal peaks and if we choose to take action, we can be saved and if we don't, we eventually disappear.

I don't want to disappear just yet. I've finally made a decision and it will open up some time for me to focus on the things that really need tending to. Me. My home life, my dreams, my relationships.

You cannot get anything out of something if you put nothing in. I have put in 3 long years at this one thing and I believe it is now time to shift the focus. We had a fun run, and now I' done.

I make the call tomorrow. 

Take charge today.

Chaos

How does one stay calm when the chaos ensues?

Lately I've had a few shit storms land in my lap. Some I caused and some I did not.  I found that dealing with them was very difficult and added some unhealthy stress. At first I couldn't figure out how I was going to process or deal with them. I began not sleeping well, having thoughts of giving up. Then a thought came to me. "Why let them win?" I thought to myself. These are my dreams, my goals not theirs and who cares if people try to bring you down. 

Finding a way to keep your head high is hard but worse things have happened and we have all lived through it.  I like to write and read, get it out in a constructive way so that your mind stops chattering so much. The last thing I need is an anxiety attack or take my anger out on innocent bystanders.

Controlling yourself and emotions when the storms hit is very hard. Especially for me. I have never really tried to control myself, only others. I guess there is no better time than to start right now by channeling that negative spuge into some good reading and writing.

I've recently read that stress kills and it seems no one takes that seriously. I did not know that even simple driving related stress can kill you. Why don't we pay attention to this silent killer more? Why do we keep pushing ourselves towards more stress? We are told smoking causes cancer, so we stop smoking. We are told not eating well causes diabetes, so we eat more veggies, we are told to wear seatbelts more cause they save lives and we do. Yet we are also told that stress is a major killer, but do we work less? No. Do we enlist in courses to help conquer stress and anxiety? No. Do we take the time out to enjoy the small things in life? No.

I challenge you and myself for that matter today to take time out and release your stress however you choose. When you feel the surge of adrenaline cause by traffic, an argument or anything else, go to your happy place and breathe. Breathe now so you can still breathe in 10 years.

It's sunny. Wicked.

Silver Linings

I would just like to point out that I was an hour late for work again today.. beautiful. Sleep was simply more important and Im ok with that.

Someone once said that with all bad situations there is usually a silver lining in there... somewhere. As some relationships wither away to a difficult end, some are blooming to new greatness. I feel like I am closer to the people that truly deserve it. I am slowly learning to cut out some of the bullshit people, although it does take time and adjustments must be made.

I feel good about the core group I have around me. I am connecting and loving so freely. You just know certain people are supposed to be in your life. I am fortunate to have a big pile of supportive, fun-loving, positive people around me.

Negatives be gone!

Twitting... WTF?

Ok I am starting to feel the vomit creeping up the back of my throat as I think about this Twitter business.

How many of these fucking things will pop up? I currently have a My Space account, Hi5 account, Meetmeinto account, Facebook, classmates.com account.. I have not used any with the exception of Facebook which I only started because my b/f at the time was online and yes, I wanted to creep and find out what he was doing. Fuck, I even have an E-harmony page although I refuse to pay and thus just get teased by "wanna meet your perfect match, meet Jim?" emails all days long. Thanks for that.

So here is some Twitterology for you:

I have a Twitter account, thus, I am a TWIT. Nice.

I post a blog on my Twitter account thus, I'm tweeting... right a bird.

If there are a bunch of you, you are Twitters, or better yet a bunch of TWITS one vowel away from being TWATS might I colourfully add.

I'm a bird and a retard, in essence, I'm a retarded bird and so are all you TWITTERS out there.

I am just exhausted with all this online communicating. I mean how many ways do my 10 friends need to see me? Its the same fkn pictures, the same notes, the same everything and all you REALLY do is add the SAME fkn people.

Ugghh so tiring.. so as tempting as being a TWAT might be. Ill have to politely refuse and ask Twitter to go fuck itself.

Transition

For now this blog will remain mere rants or crap text by me to serve as not only a distraction from work but also so I can just get in the habit of writing again. I will post more pics and relevant stuff as time goes on.

Im just regaining the want to blog.

What to say about today.. it's well... I was late by 45 mins. Walked directly into my boss' sit path upon entering. I might as well have waved and said "Hey there, look at me! Im late! By A LOT!" Awesome and yes awesome again.

I discovered that my Mom may want a divorce from my Dad after like 40 years of marriage. Which again is.. just awesome.  In actuality I am super proud of her and support the decision. They don't fight with me around or anything. For all I knew life was roses, sunshine and yummy cakes. Clearly not the case. I think they would both be happier sans one another.

Im learning over the past few days that being single is the new "IN" thing to do. More and more often I see people totally finding enlightenment, happiness and fulfillment from being single. It's a wonderful era we are in.  That's not to say that I don't want a relationship but the best way to put it is... I don't need one. 

Cheers to that!

I have discovered another rant and must give it it's own post.

Bored at 11:13am

Yes, it's 11:13am and I am already bored at work. Do I have work to do? Abo-fucking-lutely but I feel like NOT doing it right now. I am taking a break.

I have already exhausted all the usual sites: FMYLife.com, Edgedating.com, Laineygossip.com, Axkickboxing.com, Womenkickboxing.com, baranmong.com, York U blog, Yahoo.ca, CP24.com and finally here I am.

There is nothing and I mean NOTHING else I can look at that isn't blocked. So I've begun texting friends to stay awake. Is this when you realize it's time to find a new job? Perhaps. Does everyone beam from ear to ear at work all day? I sure hope not. I'd have to kill them.

Well you know what? I think I will take my lunch.

What a post. Today is a slow one.